its amazing how we serve and give you the right to be such a dumbass. you dont even deserve to live

will you do me a favor and tell me if there is something in my recent entry that i can get in trouble for. i wrote it of this stupid hoe that cant tell the truth on anything.. and i used facts from her own diary showing that she lies... plus comments shes left me and sh*t.

<3

x syn x

thanks for the advice, I had been thinking on the same lines!

about your entry,

ur sarcasm is kool!

reguards,

mE!

you know, out of every diary here i tend to favor yours.

and well i cant say i think im pretty but in all honesty i know i look better than many of the bitches that post their pics here on mdd.. and young, yeah im 18.

i dont make sh*t up when i insult people, i like to get under their skin with facts. just as you seem to do which i think is why i favor your diary so much. although we are opposing sexs of one another, i find you to have excellent points that many people cant stand to face, but i used one of entries as a way to insult qtpiemom... (fat and over the hill) i dont know much about her but i find her to be amusing however, she blocked me, but thats no biggie. i hope you dont mind i used that... but i dont think i will be hearing much out of her anymore...

what i find amusing is when people try to pick at my flaws and hurt me but seeing as how i can feel nothing, their words are like throwing an ounce of water into a fire and expecting it to go out... the fire continues to blaze no matter what is thrown its way.. they are in denial of their flaws yet ive learned to accept what they cant long ago. people here at mdd are amusing, they dont see their own ignorance which allows me to throw it back at them. i thank you for your advice though, its appreciated and taken into consideration.

x gnosis x

by the way your entry title is f***ing hilarious...

x syn x

i don't live in texas anymore.

i moved to tennessee in may, and live with my mom. but i'm moving to louisiana next week to attend the tattoo school down there. hahahah, i read that you had mentioned something about fat chicks and tattoos soewhere. oh yeah, the top of this entry. *duh* but i'm not fat...just pregnant.

:P

and i posted some pictures of myself in the entry before my new one. but i'm bloated up with two babies, so i don't look like myself.

[Whiskrrrs]

you.

are my hero.

xD

lol... youre funny. and yeah actually ive been stuck on words when trying to compliment a fat chick and end up saying something of her hair or tat... in that fact, i do it to my sister all the time. shes an ugly fat crack hoe. . . i tend to stutter when im at a lost of words and with fat people, that happens often.

x gnosis x

Oh believe me, I don't.  I told them from day one that I wasn't getting involved in their drama.  I was there to do my job, not be their "friend".  It's my JOB, not my LIFE.  Then again, that may be why they don't like me.  Oh well.  Thanks for the advice though.

Jenn

lol.... so apparently im on the ok list since im 18 ( not over the hill), not fat ( i can see my rib cage), (possibly not ugly), love sex ( yay sex!)  and covered in tats( which you said only 90% of girls use to cover thier fat or ugliness)?

thats cool...i think you are an awesome dude btw... you have some f***ing awesome points.

x gnosis x

lol... i seen what yo wrote on pandoras entry of makeup... lol..

i have tats and weigh 110 you crazy man!! and if you really wanna see if im ugly, i have a link on one of my entries that you can use to check out my pic.. then if youd like write an entry on ugly chicks who weigh 110.. ( that would be interesting and id f***ing read it)   

x syn x

"Good to see you are having fun...nice entry!"

Thanks, Mark. I don't usually have fun but I sure did that day.

Take care.

Actually, no he doesn't have a medical condition. And he is def. Not rich by ANY standards. But I assure you these women aren't "over the hill, need to get laid to feel better about myself" women.

Oh please, the scar is practically non existant! Don't be such a wuss.

Are you really that shallow?

Also, I think what people are trying to say is that all of these materialistic things in your life that make you "Happy" won't last forever ( Duh )...sure you can make the most of it while your on this planet...but all you'll be left with in the end ( Once everyone gets sick of your crap...women mostly )is your cars that you like to compare women to. All this stuff about " Men are all the same..." That is SO close minded...you can't possibly know that. You just can't. You don't.

[Jeroinna]

oh... ha ha.. i went back to read the old comment you left and yeah, sorry but ima girl. but i think you make perfect since seriously. i tend to have more guy like features and qualities though which i think i one reason why i seem to no give a sh*t of how you talk on women. i think youre right and f***ing hilarious..

x gnosis x

Not every women age as horribly as you explain. Girls who take good care of themselves in their youth will most likely bring that with them into their 30's, even 40's. I know women who are 65 years old and look like they are in their late 30's...Even after children. I have a 2 year old and got NO stretch marks, and I had a c-section so I am not all "Blown out" You wouldn't even be able to tell I had a kid if it weren't for the small scar. My boobs don't sag either...

Oh and I know a guy who is 83 years old, he resembles Hugh Heffner..I swear he could be his brother! But he is single and he goes dancing every weekend( I bet that's going to be you when your 80 haha...shining your belt on all the ladies lol ) and he gets chicks in their 30's and he STILL needs viagra...and they aren't like bar flies , they are actually attractive.

But anyway, that's my two sense. Later.

The reason I didn't tell him directly deals with my own insecurities. I'm not the type of girl to come out and say "hey I wanna fu*k" even though that IS what I really want.

The thing with Tim is that things between us have not progressed to the point of sex yet. And I don't want just the sex part with Tim, I want the whole shebang. Or at least see where we could possibly go.

I realize that Brandon is not in love with me anymore, and he was just saying those things. But he knows that he doesn't have to say those things to have sex with me. All he has to do is ask.

Well thats not wrong at all.

MTD...Not at all...just killing two birds with one stone...very few people will understand (except the targets, of course)...

And by the way, don't act like we didn't have kids together...it hurts me, dear.

you're not such a bad guy.... i don't agree with a lot of the things you talk about but you make a lot of good points

aws

To that previous commenter:

I have knees in good working order, I can go down and look down on people and then go back up!

But you are right, pathetic is not the right word, so let me rephrase: Anyone giving publicity to their cancer as a way to obtain sympathy is not only pathetic, but a low life loser and an attention whore.

This is how I think about you and how you pathetically deal with cancer as if you were fighting or doing anything besides sitting in your (probably) overweight ass waiting for doctors to correct your pathetic lifestyle that caused that cancer on the first place. Do feed yourself with pills and stick to your chair and your low wages until the rest of the world can finally get rid of yoru pathetic existence.

Dear reader, thanks for your help and pointing out where I should improve my writing!

 GOOD ONE

It is not a fight but it is still very hard to deal with and most of the Cancer sufferers don't want to talk about it so the ones that do are attention whores!

[awsmnss24]

by the way, I am still learning to ingore the people who doesnt really need me in their lives.  I always thought " Do I need them in mine, if not then I dont need to talk to them" But it doesnt always work with me.  

I dont know exactly why, maybe im too soft hearted and want to give out many chances as possible? or is it because I dont want to deal with the extend drama that is about to come on later date?

Who knows?

[Deafchick]

You should be concitered a prophet of the truth or something!

:P

People like that really annoy me, though.

Yeah I am deaf and so is my daughter and son.

So you actually travel and learn languages. How many languages you know?

anyway.. about this entry, I never really look at it like this.  Fighting a good fight. Hmm that is an interesting point of view.  I always thought Cancer is Cancer, if you can beat it, good!

[Deafchick]

I read this entry. I know everyone is entitled to their opinions.  But your so talented and you speak your mind. I like that.

Oh that is good somebody else in this site knows signs.  I always thought that sign language should be under the category Foreign language, a requirement to learn in school just like spanish etc etc...

[Deafchick]

Gnosis...I thought you were a guy! Well, in that case I am very happy you understand that you are not going to get any unless we can see your ribcage.

It seems fatsoes have the idea that "the important thing is on the inside"...speak about delusional losers!

whats so wrong with sex? ...

and i thought the rib cage thing was funny and im a f***ing girl! my ribs show and im proud of it...

-gnosis-

 the girl under mine is stupid.. but that doesnt seem to be a big shocker there.

okay well I am younger then u...Im 14 almost 15,and that seemed kinda shallow especially the fat one..you want their ribs 2 be sticking out...?

That looks disgusting!!!

so u would rather have a girl that starvs her-self then a girl that eats..

well u probilly wouldnt care b/c this entry seems like u just want sex.

Hey -

Thanks for your insight. I think you're wrong, though.

I know this woman better than I know any person on this earth, due to the uncomfortably close relationship she forced me into. I therefore know exactly how to manipulate her, and what behaviour to have towards her to get the result I want.

She's such a fool.

Ash

Hey -

Yep. It's in an entry a few back, to save explanation. But she fired me basicaly because I told her I won't be spoken to like I'm stupid, I won't be treated like sh*t, and she boozes too much.

Lol.

Ash

Interesting, thanks. 

What is it about women that you hate so much?? Why do you say such things... ok yes women get old and they don't age as well as men and it sucks...but you reiterating the fact is just cruel... we already know this...

I don't understand what you get from saying these things...

[awsmnss24]

vea puess.....

no se que decir  al respecto...puede ser...

que andes bieeen

Possibly...I guess that would depend on the circumstances.  

It's mostly an attitude thing I think, that's what gets me about them.

Ok, I have a question...I'm very interested to get your point of view on some aspects of my situation.

It's no secret that I'm currently involved in a relationship with an inmate.  This is one of your favorite examples (I've seen you use it several times) of the types of losers "MILF's" are able to get.  I definitely fall into this category as an overweight (thankfully not by everyone's standards, black men love their "thick" women) single mother that makes less than 100k a year.

I have been married once (I left him, and he wasn't a loser), engaged twice (neither of them losers), and continually have problems finding men that are interested in a purely sexual relationship.  This has been an ongoing problem for me for most of my adult life, I've not often been interested in "relationships," I've mostly been looking for a f*** buddy. 

With my situation now, this has become especially important, since being celibate for two years is not an option.  I'm absolutely not interested in a relationship, I'm interesed in sex, no strings attached.  This has been a problem for them, not me.  Everyone knows I have a thug fetish (perfect example, the prison boyfriend), as my mother likes to say, I guess I'm a typical woman that likes the bad boy.  I've been like this since a very early age, before I was "damaged goods," as you would say. 

I guess the bad boys have reason to use me.  Although I don't make 100k, I do have a good job, a home, two cars, a clean record, etc.  I'm the innocent looking white girl from the heights that can definitely benefit their lives in some way, so who really knows what their motivations were?  What about the others though?  What about my ex-husband, not a loser?  What about the chemist from Los Alamos labs that I dated two years ago?  He made some serious money, I'm sure you can imagine.  What about the chef from earlier this year?  I cut him off (even though I hated to, I had great sex with him) because he couldn't accept the fact that I only wanted him for sex?  I won't take up more space with additional examples, but I have them. 

Sorry, I didn't mean to write a novel on your entry, but I'm very interested to get your take on all of this.

jajaja...wow..what an entry...

u are a curious person...

Y bueno..si es cierto entonces..xque queres que conozca tu parte?

ivy

eww, i'm getting stretch marks now. i never noticed them before i read this entry.

:P

well, after eighteen weeks into a twin pregnancy, it was bound to happen.

*sigh.*

wow that kinda harsh

& funny

XxUnforgetablexX

jajajaaj

ahh ok...veo que sabes entonces!

+++

ya me tengo que ir...

cuidese pues..y gracias x los comentarios

y bueno, no se..

demás que para ti sea mas sencillo decir esto..xque tu vida es muuuy liberal..pero yo si creo en el amor..y no se...solo pienso en lo que pasó..en la relación...

aunque ya no como antes..pero si...suelo pensarlo..xque es algo que para mi fué importante...no se ...es decir...cuando estoy en una relación..me comprometo...igual el...(mi ex)..entonces, solo pienso en lo que pasó..nada mas..

no puedo tomarme las cosas tan faciles...(tampoco es complicarme)..es simplemente recordar...quedarme con las cosas buenas de lo que fué aquello.

Y bueno...yo se que hay que pasarla bueno...pero ahora no puedo conocer a mas nadie!! ajajaja...un clavo no saca a otro clavo...tengo que superarlo yo sola...todo esto

es un perrooo!!! jajajaja

buenoo..lo dijo usted!!!

que sabes de medellin?---

y buenoo....que mas te podría decir..nadaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

+++++

ayy tanto tiempoo x allaaa..que jarteraaa!

jajajajajaj

perdona..me dio risa tu comentario!!

y bueno..ya han pasado 2 meses que no se nada de el..ni por telefono..ni nos hemos visto..ni nada!!--

entonces...mas que claro que no quiere nada...

tanto como antes, no me afecta...estoy mucho mas tranquila...y hecha a la idea pues...----tanto como dices  que solo queria tener relaciones conmigo..emm...si fuese asi, es como dices, me hubiera buscado hace muuuuuuuucho tiempo...

simplemente..la magia se acabó para el...y punto..no me mata saber eso ya...

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emm y con respecto a las colombianas que se creen mucho..o que menosprecian a su país...si..son unas tontas que no se acuerdan de donde vienen!...jajajaja

yo asi este en argentina o italia..adoooro mi pais..y la banderita la mantengo siempre!! jajajaa..mas colombiana que yo...imposiblee!! jajaja...demasiado orgullosa de ser latina..y colombiana...

++++

y no se...abunda la superficialidad...y demás que hayan mil colombianos mas que demuestren su amor por el país...eso es bueno..que cada uno sea orgulloso de donde venga...

jajaja..si..colombiana a mucho honor!!

tenes msn?

jajaja...chico trabajador

hola!

wow.!! super bueno que te gusten los idiomas..y que domines a la perfección el español!..

estas en asia por trabajo? o vacaciones?

+++

yo se inglés tambien..hablo y entiendo el italiano..pero no lo se escribir...--al igual que el portugués---

[occultfeelings]

hola!!

hablas perfecto el español! de donde es?

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y sip..ya estoy totalmente hecha a la idea...sé que debo seguir para adelante..y no estancarme...necesito es tiempo...

el no me mereció y listoo!! jajajajaj

gracias x pasarse!

So I was just at your *cough* close, now personal (all comments considered *smile*) friend qtpiemom's diary. Seems you're causing more stink than a diarrhea-ridden 1-year-old.

I wonder how it all will end, Mark...another page-turner. :P

Thanks

Im on my way there now..

[arsenal]

"You do realize your piece-of-sh*t dad allowed all of you to live poor as you lived, right? What a loser! (I know you don't mind me saying so)."

I don't mind you saying so because he was a f***ing peice of sh*t a**h*** of a loser. He never got into fights with men. It was either me or throwing my mother against the wall or kicking the family dog down the basement steps. He was a coward. Sober or drunk he was still an a**h***.

It's been 34 years since his death but the wounds are still there. I was only about 9 or 10 but I still remember crying when he threw my mother against the wall. It's a hard thing to get over.

Take care, Mark.

well thanks for the advice.

I read this entry, love it.   Have a nice day.

My flash was off.  My camera is a piece of Junk. It doesnt work when its daylight.  I plan on getting new one.

Today's entry was very interesting!

While most people are probably going to diagree, (Or maybe most women. I'm sure more men can relate to this.) I think you are 100% right on.

After I started reading your diary, I kinda wished that I had discovered it before I got pregnant and pretty much set myself up for a lame life of raising my child, who I still love unconditionally, even now with her still inside me.

I think that if more people looked at life from your point of view, there would be a lot less disappointment when the brutal truth comes around.

Of course, looking back and reading some recent entries, I know that I fit your description of a loser pretty well. Pregnant at 18, living at mom's, no job, and possibly the overweight thing, since I'm seventeen weeks along and up to 130 lbs... But I can appreciate your view of people like me, and not be offended like so many others because it's the truth...

Oops, sorry for most of this not being relevant to the entry, but since this is my first time commenting, I figured I might as well say what I've been wanting to say!

:D

So, if I were you, I would keep an eye on that beautiful girlfriend of yours.

P.S. I find it hard to believe that a man, a real man, would be keeping a diary online. Especially on a site where the majority of the clientelle are middle aged housewives or teenage girls. Again, just my opinion. [someonewhoknows12] 

That gf of lenahan and her bf reading each other's diaries (including the one on MDD) know what they are doing everyday.

Actually, if a man keeps writing like "Today it's good weather and it makes me happy, so I decided to do some shopping after I finish my sweet sweet donuts...", that is a disaster. He spends time writing TOPICs which makes some ppl unhappy but admit it or not, he is not the only man has those opinions. Not like nanny only tells what you like to hear, a real man doesn't talk bullsh*t. The fact is he writes his topics in a ridiculous way and so many middle aged housewives or teenage girls keep reading and reading and still reading....

[toomuchtocare]

How dare you think that you know people and what they want or need or how they act or anything about them!?!?!

You say all this but you have no idea what your talking about... relationships are hard and no one ever said it was going to be easy why is it that you have to sh*t on every one else? Is it because you think your better then the rest of us or do you just like making people feel like sh*t... yes i know i don't have to read your entries and i probably won't after this and I'm not saying that you don't have a lot of good points but it is not fair for you to judge people you don't even know!

Yes people do settle for less then what they wanted a lot of the time and sh*t happens but that is no reason to assume they are unhappy with the person they are with... you can't help who you fall in love with!

Maybe you should write about your own life and stop trying to be Dr. Phil 

Anorexics have heart attacks too because they don't have enough energy to make their hearts beat. I know this because an anorexic friend.

"Great business if you are the one with little wealth, of course! You have heard all sort of horror stories of married women sucking the life out of their husbands and taking them for all they’ve got…so the differences are quite slim."

Why is it thatyou always have something to say against women in these situations its not just the women who do it...

For example, My sister married a man who had his own business and already had two kids from a previous relationship. She had a son from a previous relationship also they had a child together.

Now, they are getting a divorce..but i am getting ahead of myself...

He had a safe in the closet in the bedroom where he put all the oney he made and never gave her the combo and only put a little bit of money in the joint account.

My sister is a very succesful women and she deserves so much better... he told her what she could wear and where she could go and who she could talk to and that is bull sh*t.

For Christmas he got her a fridge for the bedroom so SHE wouldn't have to get up in the middle of the night to get HIM bottle of water....

You can't tell me thats a healthy relationship...

And on your comment that after 35 its all over and done thats an a**h*** comment because I know many women over 35 and a lot over 40 who are gorgeous... what about the cougars???

You really have the audacity to say these things I'm surprised you have a girlfriend at all!

You don't think the fact that we were engaged previously (before I kicked him to the curb for another man) changes anything?  You know we're not talking about some kind of twisted "trying to find a daddy for my kid" kind of thing either, we're talking about two people that were really in love, for a long time.  Of course you may be right, but either way it doesn't matter.  My "informed decision about where to go with this" centers around sex, whether or not I want it...not whether or not I want to be back in a relationship with him. 

We love you too Mark, and always appreciate your bits of good ol' reality, even though we still think you're full of sh*t every once in a while! 

hmm... i wouldnt say turning 35 would mean you are basically done as far as life goes but i wouldnt really know much considering im 18. ive got a few years to go... and ive also got a sister thats like your cousin. only difference is my sisters boyfriend got about 5 other girls pregnant and now hes sitting i jail while she takes care of his lil boy. and my mom always thought she would grow up to be the nurse or something important. shes second hand sh*t on the bathroom walls...

but the kermit thing was funny...

~syn gnosis~

I f***ING LOVE YOU:)

YOUR SO VERY STRONG AND DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF YOUR VIEWS. DONT EVER LET THEM GET TO YOU.

I agree with you on this one too.  I've never received a dime of child support for my 16 year old daughter (not really worth what I'd have to do I guess), but check out this ugliness.

I actually know a single mother that is right now, at this very moment, on the phone with her son's dad, demanding extra money.  She's telling him that her son needs it for school supplies, when the real story is that she needs to go trolling at the club for a new man tonight, and needs some extra cash.  She says that if he doesn't pay up she'll call his wife and say that he's been cheating.  Dirty bitch, right?

I agree with you on this entry....this reminds me of my own marriage and the irony of it. I begged him to marry me, after dating him for a year and a half. I gave him an ultimatum and he crumpled under the pressure.

Needless to say, the tables turned on me cuz I've spent years hating that I married him, while he has never regretted the decision. lol...now he totally regrets staying with me, but that's entirely another story.

To Qt"Iamafat"mom:

Your diary has 310 entries and 20179 clicks.

My dairy has 113 entries and 45465 clicks.

So...who is the loser? yeah, I thought so.

Now, go back to eat sh*t, get fat and take care of your bastard kids as you are told!

DragonRider, in response to your comments: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

You will only say this once? So what are you going to do, beat me up with a...byte? BUUUUUUUUUUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

You sure made me laugh, little boy.

:L thanks,

only the first comment was bad....
so far.

I havent read the whole of your entry yet,
but it makes me laugh...
my mum is....er.....not slim...
but im not exactly fat,
but im not thin enough yet,
when my mum was my age (14),
she was really skinny,
and after having me and my brother (20),
she like put on loads of weight,
and she has always been to lazy to get it off her,
she does try sometime,
but only sometimes,
but i am the complete opposite,
cause i have a curvy body,
not in the fat way,
but as i said, im not thin enough yet,
but i like healthy food&execise,
anyway, theres me going on about rubbish,
but fat people should get off their fat asses and do something and eat less,
and even if they do have a 'low metabolism,
it is NOT  a excuse,
i put weight on verryyy easy,
put i get weight of verryyy easy,
There is plenty of gyms, exercise videos, streets to run on, etc etc, to wobbly your fat off you.

And if time is your problem,
eat less?  eating wastes more time than exercise,
and cooking healthily can take as much time as putting your micro meal in the microwave or ordering a take away.

So yer, i have gone on for even longer,
but there is NO excuse for fat staying on.

:)

Juicyx